Friday, October 24, 2008

Passionately Pink for the Cure - Last Treatment - October 23, 2008


We were pink for the day! Lots of people had been asking me how I was going to celebrate going into remission and finishing 20 long weeks of treatment. I had heard about "Passionately Pink for the Cure" during Race for the Cure a few years ago and always thought it would be fun to do. Anyways, I hope any who wore pink that day had fun doing so. We raised $ 400.00 for the Susan G. Komen Foundation and looked cute doing it!. My day was great. It began with a knock at the door at 7am. My cute "ladies" (past YW presidency) came with pink cinnamon rolls, pink strawberry milk and had decorated my yard so cute! We all ate breakfast together and took some pictures -yikes- me in a bathrobe! They are the best! I will truly miss them Mondays and Thursdays (thanks for the laundry help!)

Next, Alison Cogswell picked me up for treatment. She was my last chemo buddy. We chatted and laughed with the nurses. Lauren kept Ashton since she is offtrack. My nurses were happy that I was on my last treatment of my final cycle. They asked if we were going to celebrate and I told them it had already begun. They said knowing you, you've got pictures to show us - Yes I did. So Fun. Next Liz and Al took me to lunch. Crazy how life gets so busy that you hardly get to see your backyard friends. Lunch was great.

Finally, Tracie and Anthony (Trav's sister and bro-in-law) had a little end of chemo celebration at their home that evening with both of our families. It was kind of funny because Trav had mentioned that it was at 7pm and with light snacks. We just kind of dinked around our home killing time and then we got a phone call from Tracie wondering where we were and letting us know we were late for our own party! It had started at 6pm. It was fun and very pink! Lauren passed out Passionately Pink pins and the kids all scattered to play with cousins. A special surprise of the night was a DVD that Tracie and Anthony made celebrating making it through these past twenty weeks. It was super touching and lots of tears were shed. I loved it! Tracie also presented the scrapbook that was written along with the wonderful pictures that Jen Dillon took at the Chemo Mocktail Party. It has been so fun to read all the well wishes.

It is strange being done. It hit me at treatment when the nurse congratulated me on finishing the treatments and then said, "see ya next week." It is true, I begin "maintenance" treatments of herceptin every three weeks and every fourth week a quick treatment of zomata. It's not ugly chemo and minimal side effects. It will be a breeze compared to chemo. It is just weird to have this disease be part of my life again. Someone asked me how long do you have to do this and I said the rest of my life. That is so weird to say. Life is strange. I truly look at things different. My eyes rest on things longer. I listen to people better. Relationships mean more now than ever. My prayers are longer, more thoughtful and sometimes I'm exhausted when finished. I love more - in so many ways. Travis is my rock. He rolls with my tears, fears and lame sarcasm. He doesn't let me get too down with the crappy diagnosis. He always says, "We'll deal with the bad when it gets bad." My kids keep make me so happy. Their sweet prayers on my behalf are so touching. Their "normalcy" is reassuring. I appreciate and love Garrett's desire to do good continually. I appreciate and love Lauren's creativity and sweetness. I appreciate and love Ashton's playfulness and charm - he is my "smart baby".

I can't express how thankful I am to everyone. The meals were so helpful. I appreciate the laundry help, baby sitting during treatments, the housekeeper from Utah Cancer Foundation, treats and drinks, amazing encouragement card (see pictures below) most of all the countless prayers and fasts held on my behalf. I know the power of prayer and feel very close to the Lord each and every time I pray. I love the Lord and put all my faith in him and know there is a plan and my life is in his hands.

Much love, Jules



Monday, October 20, 2008

19th Treatment - October 16, 2008


Today was my 2nd to last treatment - yeah! Tracie, my sis-in-law, joined me for chemo before our families both took off for a weekend in St. George. It is wonderful to have such a supportive and amazing friend who you can call your sister too! We hung out and worked a little on setting up a "Passionately Pink" day to celebrate my completion of 20 weeks of treatment and going into remission. Dave, my nurse, ran my chemo a little faster than normal to help us get out of there early.

You might have noticed this lovely handmade quilt that is keeping me warm during treatment, Natalie and Pamela made this for me as they noticed I always had a blanket on me in my treatment pictures. Super Cute! I love it. It has my favorite scripture D&C 84:88, plus flowers stitched on it.

As a way to celebrate the end of 20 weeks of chemo, I have set up a "Passionately Pink" day on Thursday, October 23, 2008. Here is a link to my site (You will have to "cut and paste" the link as I can't figure out how to get it to be "clickable"):

http://www.komendonations.org/site/TR/PassionatelyPink/PassionatelyPink?px=3363935&pg=personal&fr_id=1080

It is a day where you can donate $ 5.00 to Susan G. Komen Foundation and wear PINK to support breast cancer. At the Race for the Cure luncheon this year I bought Lauren a shirt that says, "When I grow up, there's gonna be a cure." I bought that before I knew my cancer had recurred, but I believe that statement to be true. When I look at Lauren I pray that she as well as all of the other millions of little girls will grow up knowing it was an ugly deadly disease, but that there is finally a cure.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

18th Treatment - October 9, 2008

Bummer, but no picture this week. I went to St. George the past weekend with my sis-in-law and mother-in-law and left my camera at my dad's house. I had my nurse, Doug, take a picture with my cell phone, but Travis and I can't figure out to get it off. We've tried to email, but it keeps saying "failed". Anyways, no picture this week. I am grateful for Uncle Jon being my chemo buddy this week. He has Thursdays off and was a total sport coming with me. We enjoyed catching up and laughing with my great nurses.

I can truly see the end of chemo is sight. Just two treatments left. Yeah! This past week I have been exploring alternative/holistic ways to "manage" cancer. I have spoken to several "friend of a friend" regarding trying to do something to keep the cancer away now that it will be in remission. Travis and I also met with a doctor who treats cancer with diet/nutrition and high doses of certain enzymes. It all makes my head swirl. I will meet with another woman who treats people with different herbs next. It is a lot to take in and try and mesh with "western" medicine. I also have to be careful that it doesn't make the other drugs that I'm on metabolize differently. The only thing I am sure about is that I am super sick of chemo and ready to be done. I am very grateful for the hair I have left and need it to quit falling out. Finally, I'm grateful for Travis, Garrett, Lauren, and Ashton, and all of your good thoughts and prayers.

Friday, October 3, 2008

17th Treatment - October 2, 2008



Today was the beginning of my last cycle of Chemo. It was a long treatment that began with a doctor's appointment first. Travis came with me and we discussed with the doctor "what's next?". First, I have 3 more treatments left until I am done with the "icky" chemos. I then will be receiving Herceptin every third week, this drug targets a protein that my body produces called HER2. It goes and attaches itself to this protein and will hopefully help slow down another recurrence. Every fourth week I'll be given the drug Zometa which slows down bone complication where the cancer has metastasized to the bones. This will help strengthen L4 in my spine. I have been referred to a gynecologist oncologist, Karen Zempolich to schedule a laproscopic surgery to remove my ovaries sometime in November. This surgery will stop estrogen production which fuels my cancer. I then will be given Femara which will prevent any other estrogen production in my body. I will be given PET scans every three months and then be vigilant checking my body for any unusual pain or lumps.

Travis hung with me at chemo today and we just hung and ate lunch there. Following chemo I came home to the best welcome. Some kind friend decorated my door with pink ribbons and the nicest sign to remind me that October is breast cancer awareness and made a cute sign with a darling message. Thank you to whoever made this welcome home. It made my day. Last night was a blast because Travis, Garret and me went to the U of U football game where Utah barely beat Oregon State. It went down to the wire and the Utes won! Very exciting.